September292014
Aw, quit tugging on my heartstrings…

Aw, quit tugging on my heartstrings…

1AM
Looks like someone isn’t playing it smart by wearing a trash bin for a hat. Wait a minute…

Looks like someone isn’t playing it smart by wearing a trash bin for a hat. Wait a minute…

September282014

I live once more! Things are turning around in my life: Debit Card, Anxiety, Relationships, Compulsive Internet Usage

After careful considerations whether I should close this blog or not I decided to keep it active once more. The thing about 2 week hiatus, I went to find a counselor to keep my anxiety in check. I took a recommended break from the Internet (sorta) to focus on other things to get out of the way. From what I can tell, quite a bit happened while I was away. My counselor told me to draw to keep my hobby alive. It has helped me feel organized. My motivation/drive to get through the day are starting to get better, from what I was told, I needed to get something more to eat and adding in more hours in my sleep. Overall, I’m feeling a bit more lively than usual! Man, I just wished I could have done this much sooner. I remembered thinking I didn’t need “help” and I thought to myself that I could handle everything to myself. I was wrong, and I am REALLY sorry for those who are very dear and close to me in real life, I just needed someone to talk some senses into me. I spoke with my family again (well kinda). Everything was awkward because I haven’t really spoke much around them that often. At least no one hated me that I ignored them for some time. Oh and I got my Debit Card replaced and renewed so things are starting to look up! Can’t believe I beat myself up for losing that damn piece of plastic!

September182014

2 Weeks

Coming soon…

September172014

So this is it huh? Is that how you wanna play anxiety?? Bring it on! I’m not dead, sort of…

I’m getting fed up with my anxieties for the past weeks away from home (not counting weekends). I’m looking for a counselor to help me get over or at least help keep my anxieties in check with the motivation that I’m drain of. I hate how it interferes with my passion to draw something at least shitty with no effort, I literally can’t. I just need to find a person that could help me in my real life to get through my  everyday task. I almost thought about shutting down my blog multiple times. I don’t know why, I just felt like it for no reason and I will doubt it will come to it (hopefully). Everyday feels the same, I feel like a rusty bin of trash with moldy rubbish that just recently been vomited on and filled to the brim with unmentionable things of god-who-knows what. Just about everything about my plans aren’t going great: one of my friend got sick, my paycheck came late, I was late for my rent almost risking myself losing my apartment, and almost got robbed both my car and apartment.

There are others that has at least been supportive or just blog a few things for me to get my mind off of things I cared less about conflicting my life. I just want to say “thank you” and appreciate the support, but as of right now I have my own battles going through the process of studying in my courses, late rent payment, financial short-comings, clearing my missing debit card fiasco, and losing my passion to do what I love to do.

September162014

Times where I just want to quit studying for a month.

I hate having to lose the “drive” to even pick up my pencil and sketch something fairly simple. I know I shouldn’t force myself to draw something because I’ll lose that passion to draw even more. I was told to put if off and wait until I feel like drawing again. But for how long? I’m honestly scared to lose interest in art because of the amount of responsibility. So if there are others like me, please do share your experience how you guys get over that “hump”.

September152014
Developers are napping, posting anthropomorphic-dragon eating corn dog
*nibble*
Art: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Lilac-Eating-A-Corndog-Final-472488903

Developers are napping, posting anthropomorphic-dragon eating corn dog

*nibble*

Art: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Lilac-Eating-A-Corndog-Final-472488903

September132014

Near the end of the video, I can’t help if Mario is trying to hide something from his past he’s not proud of…

It’s really subtle that his voice in the end sounded serious, you could actually detect that he’s lying in a way to cover up his “monkey abuse” scandal.

Ah well, I still love his games though. Don’t we all have skeletons in our closet?

September122014
drtanner:

chakrabot:

slitheringink:

artofcarmen:

fyeahwhovians:

raygender:

themediafix:

Breaking news: The D.C. Appeals Court just killed Net Neutrality.This could be the end of the Internet as we know it. But it doesn’t have to be. Tell the FCC to restore Net Neutrality: http://bit.ly/1iOOjoe

they want to make the internet like tv. with channels and paying to get to specific websites and things. net neutrality = not doing that

This impacts every internet user. Please signal boost the hell out of this and sign the petition if you are American

I do not reblog things like this very often, but this affects me both personally and my business as a freelance artist.
In the economy here; cash is already strapped as it is. You bet your ass companies would suck the ever living life out of misc. art sites.
I don’t want it to ever come down to me choosing between groceries or purchasing a new tier package via comcast to be able to access tumblr or DeviantArt (let alone not guaranteeing I’ll even be seen by my customer base since they may not want to pay out their asses either). It doesn’t seem important to most, but I do 90% of my business online entirely.
Please sign up, fight for this and share it with your followers/friends/family and urge them to give them hell as well.

Not writing related, but this is incredibly important. While we pay for service via ISPs, the internet has been a relatively free space where everyone, no matter their income level, is able to connect, access a wealth of information, and express themselves. The Internet has become a major part of our culture as human beings and the notion that ISPs might be able to limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more is utterly sickening. A lot of us are cash strapped as is, and I’d rather not be limited even more by someone else’s greed. Net Neutrality is essential and I hope you guys will understand why it needs to remain.
-Morgan
P.S. Signal boost this if you’re able.

“ limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more”
 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more
 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more
 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more
 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more
DO YOU WANT THIS? NO?? CLICK THE LINK. REBLOG.

As I understand this ruling, it means that businesses now have to pay extra to ISPs to have access to their websites through that ISP provided at a reasonable speed. If you don’t pay, users’ access to your website will be slowed to a crawl - so independent people and small businesses can forget about getting onto that high speed access tier. 
This means that the American internet is going to be firmly under the control of those who have the most money. You’ll only get to see the content of those who can pay the ISPs to provide access at a reasonable speed. This means that you can expect to see skewed representation of just about everything, with those bigger businesses who can afford to pay ISPs a premium for access deciding what you can and cannot read, view and consume on the internet.
This is not something that we have in the UK. Our ISPs compete with each other to provide higher speeds, better services and lower prices, but because there’s a monopoly in the US of a few ISPs who provide services, they can afford to do this to you. You can’t go anywhere else, after all.
Everyone in the US needs to sign that petition, call their representatives, write angry letters and do whatever you can to tell your government that this ruling is Not Okay.

drtanner:

chakrabot:

slitheringink:

artofcarmen:

fyeahwhovians:

raygender:

themediafix:

Breaking news: The D.C. Appeals Court just killed Net Neutrality.

This could be the end of the Internet as we know it. But it doesn’t have to be. 

Tell the FCC to restore Net Neutrality: http://bit.ly/1iOOjoe

they want to make the internet like tv. with channels and paying to get to specific websites and things. net neutrality = not doing that

This impacts every internet user. Please signal boost the hell out of this and sign the petition if you are American

I do not reblog things like this very often, but this affects me both personally and my business as a freelance artist.

In the economy here; cash is already strapped as it is. You bet your ass companies would suck the ever living life out of misc. art sites.

I don’t want it to ever come down to me choosing between groceries or purchasing a new tier package via comcast to be able to access tumblr or DeviantArt (let alone not guaranteeing I’ll even be seen by my customer base since they may not want to pay out their asses either). It doesn’t seem important to most, but I do 90% of my business online entirely.

Please sign up, fight for this and share it with your followers/friends/family and urge them to give them hell as well.

Not writing related, but this is incredibly important. While we pay for service via ISPs, the internet has been a relatively free space where everyone, no matter their income level, is able to connect, access a wealth of information, and express themselves. The Internet has become a major part of our culture as human beings and the notion that ISPs might be able to limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more is utterly sickening. A lot of us are cash strapped as is, and I’d rather not be limited even more by someone else’s greed. Net Neutrality is essential and I hope you guys will understand why it needs to remain.

-Morgan

P.S. Signal boost this if you’re able.

“ limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more”

 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more

 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more

 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more

 limit what sites I can access unless I pay them more

DO YOU WANT THIS? NO?? CLICK THE LINK. REBLOG.

As I understand this ruling, it means that businesses now have to pay extra to ISPs to have access to their websites through that ISP provided at a reasonable speed. If you don’t pay, users’ access to your website will be slowed to a crawl - so independent people and small businesses can forget about getting onto that high speed access tier. 

This means that the American internet is going to be firmly under the control of those who have the most money. You’ll only get to see the content of those who can pay the ISPs to provide access at a reasonable speed. This means that you can expect to see skewed representation of just about everything, with those bigger businesses who can afford to pay ISPs a premium for access deciding what you can and cannot read, view and consume on the internet.

This is not something that we have in the UK. Our ISPs compete with each other to provide higher speeds, better services and lower prices, but because there’s a monopoly in the US of a few ISPs who provide services, they can afford to do this to you. You can’t go anywhere else, after all.

Everyone in the US needs to sign that petition, call their representatives, write angry letters and do whatever you can to tell your government that this ruling is Not Okay.

(via sanicdahegehog)

September112014

One last rant for the week: Things goes bad to worse…

So I cancelled my missing card in case if it falls into the wrong hands. However things gets worse for me when I discover a cop cruiser parked in my area and several cars with shattered windshields reported with missing items. I know somethings going on. News around my private apartment area or so they say there’s an increase of criminal activity. Now I’m pissed because I didn’t sign up for this after filing out my application to my apartment for a guaranteed “hassle free living”. So I’m going to be pretty quiet due to anxiety again. I may feel better next week hopefully if things gets better.

To whom ever took my card: I will never forgive you and beat the ever living shit out of you and use that shit to slam it back on your ass so I can beat it once more and don’t think you could repay me for forgiveness with money either (because you may have wasted my time and resources filing a “missing card” report and hope to god you don’t use it that same card you may have stole).

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